Thursday, May 16, 2013
Just popping by
Just popping by to see how everyone is, and to see if you've seen this video about what not to say to moms of twins?
Monday, May 6, 2013
Changes
I feel like I've disappeared from this community. I still follow the blogs that I've been following for over a year now, but differently. Passively. I think of you often, but to be honest, I think of you sometimes as friends that I'm letting slip away. This makes me sad, but I'm not sure what to do about it.
Here's the thing. I found this community when I needed the support that it is so good at giving. You have me perspective and hope. I felt connected to and invested in your journeys and I it helped to know that some of you were there for me as well.
I still need support, but I need it differently now. I need people here, a physical shoulder to lean on. I need people to meet me for lunch or a walk, to help me get out of the house. I need support that I can receive while part of my attention is focused on my child.
And while I don't think that a heart has a finite amount of love, I have found that I have a finite amount of energy. And time in the day. I rarely have moments where I'm not *doing* something, and this makes blogging hard.
Maybe it will become easier in the coming months when we're on more of a schedule. When I'm not crashing at 8pm. I hope so. I miss this space. I miss you all.
I also need to figure out how to blog about our life now. For me parenting has become about all these little moments. I don't have any sage advice because I've realized that the moment I feel like we have the hang of something, C leaps ahead and we're on to new and different challenges.
I *love* being a parent, but I don't expect others to love reading about me being a parent. (Although...maybe this isn't fair? I really enjoy continuing to follow bloggers through their parenting journeys.)
Things have changed around here in unexpected ways. I know people always say that about becoming a parent, and it feels very cliche. But I don't mean that I'm now sleep deprived, or consumed by love for our new little guy. I did expect those things. I mean that I have different needs. I need different things from others, from my relationship with BG and even from myself.
So I guess, I'm just checking in to let you know that I'm still here, still reading and hope to someday soon figure out what to do with this blog.
Thinking of you all...
Here's the thing. I found this community when I needed the support that it is so good at giving. You have me perspective and hope. I felt connected to and invested in your journeys and I it helped to know that some of you were there for me as well.
I still need support, but I need it differently now. I need people here, a physical shoulder to lean on. I need people to meet me for lunch or a walk, to help me get out of the house. I need support that I can receive while part of my attention is focused on my child.
And while I don't think that a heart has a finite amount of love, I have found that I have a finite amount of energy. And time in the day. I rarely have moments where I'm not *doing* something, and this makes blogging hard.
Maybe it will become easier in the coming months when we're on more of a schedule. When I'm not crashing at 8pm. I hope so. I miss this space. I miss you all.
I also need to figure out how to blog about our life now. For me parenting has become about all these little moments. I don't have any sage advice because I've realized that the moment I feel like we have the hang of something, C leaps ahead and we're on to new and different challenges.
I *love* being a parent, but I don't expect others to love reading about me being a parent. (Although...maybe this isn't fair? I really enjoy continuing to follow bloggers through their parenting journeys.)
Things have changed around here in unexpected ways. I know people always say that about becoming a parent, and it feels very cliche. But I don't mean that I'm now sleep deprived, or consumed by love for our new little guy. I did expect those things. I mean that I have different needs. I need different things from others, from my relationship with BG and even from myself.
So I guess, I'm just checking in to let you know that I'm still here, still reading and hope to someday soon figure out what to do with this blog.
Thinking of you all...
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